im 31 and sadly, the mental health services have failed me all my life, after ive had a very hash tough life so far, missed out of everything normal ; friends etc.
i live in a one bedroom flat for 5 years now struggling with severe agoraphobia , severe anxiety , rage problems and outbursts.....racing obsessive thoughts each day , paranoia that people in society are ostracising me........i have BPD diagnosed years ago, but have OCD , PTSD and possibly rapid cycling bipolar undiagnosed.
i want further assesment, because of my symptoms , how bad theyve got......even though ive made progess im in a crisis right now and cant leave my apartment because of severe anxiety, panic outside.....watching for signs of danger....feeling threatened.......rage scared ill lose control.
the mental health services wont further asses me even though its obvious i have co existing conditions running along side the BPD.
they wont give me a regular psychotherapist , telling me theres no resources.
they wont give me any medication , telling me their addictive, have side effect.....wont treat my real problems.
so their turning me down for everything virtually.
me and mum have to fight the system to make complaints because of the services or treatment program their not giving me and failing me with..
im going to see my psychiatrist today to tell him my symptoms are unmanagable at the moment........that i cant cope, and i wanna be put in a unit as a voluntary patient..........where i could get the further assesment and treatment program im after
so ive now been and they STILL refuse to do further assesment because they dont feel its required of i have '' co existing '' illnesses like PTSD and OCD -..
my psychiatrist still wont give any medications , telling me their addictive....have side effects and dont address the root cause of my problems.
they wont refer me for a volunatry inpatient option to be further assesed......even though im in a crisis with my symptoms right now.
they wont get me any therapy or psychotherapy because they dont feel im ready because of the severe anxiety , rage and agoraphobia.
all their prepared to offer is a support worker to meet up with and go out with....attend dropin centres etc.......and their calling that '' exposure therapy ''.
there saying i need to try this first before i start any psychotherapy...
and that if i start exposure therapy, my anxiety will disappear.
1 hour ago
im so angry !
the psychiatrist said ive been assesed by 8 consultants in the past who all say i just have BPD.
but i know i have co existing illnesses of PTSD , ocd................and want further assesment.
they wont give me any medications because they said it masks the problems and are addictive.
wont refer for any 1 on 1 psychotherapy .
wont admit me as a voluntary patient .
what the hell do i do ?
go legal and fight for the right treatment program ?
im so enraged i feel like smashing the place apart through clenched teeth with a mental fire poker.
